Haze is Gone

She's dead, and I killed her.

The "somethings happening" from my previous entry was a portal opening up, and a god walking through.  An evil god by the name of Trigon.  The hero Raven's father.  An evil being of unimaginable power.  Somehow, he took advantage of what was going on with Mary Marvel, and somehow opened a portal to our world, to try and consume our world, as he has consumed so many from his dimension.  In the process, he summoned his daughter to him, and used her magic to summon the old Teen Titans to him, and he took control of them all.  So, the people who had assembled to rescue Mary Marvel, and Mary Marvel herself, had to defeat the old Teen Titans, while the magicey types had to find a way to close the portal.  Knocking out a Teen Titan seemed to snap them out of the mind control.  When we had them all freed, except Raven, Trigon himself stepped through.  I've never been hurt as much as I was hurt when Trigon hit me with his whip.  We carried on, and fought, and contained him, we were starting to lose people left and right.  Then I got called over to the magical end of things to help out over there.  When I came back, several heroes where down, including Superboy, Gekko, and Starfire, and two of the three magic people were down as well, including Adam Scott and Zatana.  I'm not sure what happened, but, the spell started to collapse, Haze somehow kept it going, and Trigon thought he might lose, so he used his last trick.  He possessed someone.  Now, he can possess someone, but the rules of magic or whatever dictate that a person who loves the person possessed is willing to sacrifice them, Trigon loses.  He goes back to his dimension, and gets locked out of this dimension, forever.  So, he tried to be tricky, and possessed Haze.

You see, you probably don't remember Haze.  She was somehow cursed to always be eventually forgotten.  Trigon thought that because she was always being forgotten, that nobody could love her, and, hence, no one could make the sacrifice.  But he didn't read the fine print.  Apparently, if Haze loved someone, that person could still complete the sacrifice, kill Haze, and banish Trigon.  And that person was me.  I didn't know.  She never told me, and I never noticed it.  She probably didn't want me to.  All Haze's relationships all end the same way, they forget about her.

So, there it is.  There was no other way, nothing else to be done.  No way to save her once she was possessed.  Haze told me to kill her.  I'm a Amazon.  Raised to be a warrior.  I did what needed to be done.  I told her I was sorry, and I killed her.  I couldn't even give her a clean death, as I had no blade with me.  And now I'm left to pick up the pieces.

I shouldn't feel this way.  I shouldn't feel GUILT.  I did nothing wrong.  But I do.  I've never killed anyone before, and now I've killed a friend.  Who loved me.  Loved me with enough force to banish a god.

Hera help me.